Designing

Was thinking of a match up between Arsenal and Liverpool when i felt like designing. Tell me what you think,

I had a bit of difficulty trying to get the Liverpool pictures at the back. pardon me heh

My Repent

Couple of ups and downs lately, mostly up though. Not too long ago, I’ve had the chief hand me my beloved and long awaited sword. The week after, came my comissioning. Finally my promotion. A long, long wait for my kit kat. 9 months of pleasure, pain, blood, sweat, toil and tears. Thinking back the last 9 months had been very fruitful. Learnt a lot about myself, my limits, my strengths, my weaknesses. I guess this journey has really been worthwhile.  The day after, something special happened. Funny how it all began, turns out it was unexpected. From friends to lovers. God knows what awaits us. Add another week to that, I’m taking my cadets already, though not entirely my own, but learning from scratch. The last 3 weeks has been real fun.  To all my brothers out there, the last 9 months was something special, I’ll keep it close to me for sure. To my babe, lets look forward with faith and believe that we’ll get there. To all my friends, thanks for being a part of my life until now. Cheers people.

Intermission

Half way thru my mission I was told to go to the front by my commanders, surprised and curious, I headed to the front expecting to be tasked with something about the mission ahead. Only for my captain to inform me that my mum has been trying to contact me thru OCS ops room. Hearing this the next few moments would be hard and painful. Upon finally contacting my family members, all my relatives kept asking me to say good things to my grandfather, things like asking him to take care and all. At first I was pretty lost at what to do next, I couldn’t show any emotions yet I had to say things into the phone. Yet by having to say anything into the phone with my relatives all crying would meant that I’d have to shave off a few hairs and tears off my face in front of my instructors and fellow friends which I wasn’t allowed to.

So I requested for my captain to ask the platoon to move on without me first before saying my piece over the phone.

“Ah Kong ah, Take care hor! Everything will be fine one la~! I will go running everyday one!”

That was the last of it. My dad picked up the phone ahead of the rest of my relatives to inform me about the time left for my grandfather.

“The doctor said that he will not be able to get thru today la, probably not even the next hour. Standby to come back to Singapore lo.”

Downhearted, but I still had a mission to do told my captain that I’d finish my mission first before returning to Singapore. Upon completing the mission, my Wing Commander asked for me. He had actually arranged everything for me to go back to Singapore by the next day. Despite my requests to finish my mission before coming back to Singapore, it was rejected. so he made the preparations for me to go back to camp pack up and leave straight for the airport.

6 1/2 hrs of bus ride, 5 hrs of flight time later. Singapore, where I was brought to Earth by my parents and those before them.

My dad would later on narrate to me what happened to my grandfather during his final moments, and thru that I was told that it was I that my grandfather was waiting for before he left. He was holding up to feel my presence however small of it, no matter the cost, just me. Sadly I couldn’t be there for him at his last moments.

Sad, disappointed, but also glad for him. No doubt he might have passed on, but what I saw in his final months leading to the closure of his book was nevertheless painful as well as agonizing. He no longer had the strength to walk, talk, gamble, joke or even eat properly anymore. On his face, he showed signs that he wants to give up, but he feels that he’ll let all of us down if he does. Clearly he was in pain, but none of us wanted him to give up.

He was the man who brought me to the market at a young age to help him count money. Called me to tease me when I was young. Told me briefly the importance of money. Taught me how I should keep myself fit by running regularly in my build up to national service. This marks the end of the story book about a man who fought on despite all tragedies he has faced in life, happiness that he has gifted his children and the many ahead of him.

Rest in peace ah Kong, you’ll always be in our hearts. Always.

Taiwan

Currently in Taiwan for “touring” puposes. Will see you guys back on 26 Feb. Take care all =D

Down and Out

Some people just can’t seem to learn their lesson. Careless, and seemingly can’t be bothered by it’s consequence. Once this cadet lost an important item and was handed his due punishment. Which includes a bad record and respective punishments had to be carried out. Yesterday, after a long training outfield, he came back tired, happy glad that he had finished a tough week of training. and during a routine check he had to cock it up by being complacent and not do the check. Instructors found that he had carried an item not permissible to be carried by a cadet after declaration. Well done. Once he settled his issues, he was handed over to his platoon commander. Where he was given punishment and was told of the formal punishments that he will get. In this case it’ll be his second time and hence a poorer record and a harder punishment.

Foolish he was, given that ample time to check and all he chose not to. Given the fact that he was experienced with the punishment, he forgot about it. The implications would be severe, the family gatherings he will miss, the preparation for his up coming exercises will hit a bump or two. Silly and foolish. I can’t think of another word to describe him, the person standing in front of my mirror.

A Newton, A New Stark

These days have been quite slack, can’t seem to kick start my days and start doing work properly. Think probably is the holiday season and the start of a new term, can’t get the engine going. Feeling restless everyday, argh! Hate this feeling. Couple of things going through my head lately about my own conduct and me. Have I really been too much? Can’t seem to tell lately. Cant’ seem to control myself also, getting slacker in so many areas. Got to keep up man, I don’t want to slack anymore. I’ve slacked enough and it’s about time I stopped slacking. Seriously to all reading this, study hard and don’t regret like I’m regretting now. Can’t get anything that I want. This feeling sucks big time. Urgh…

Above, Beyond, As One, Golf?!

Today marks the a year from the time I took my first step into the uniformed life. It was on 26 Dec 10 am where I left my home in the wee hours of the morning, met up with Kelvin and headed to CMPB together to do our medical check up. Took the required medical tests and all before finally leaving the restricted area late in the afternoon. Fast forward a year and I’m sitting here looking at how my NS life so far has been such an enjoyment, all the blood, sweat and tears that flowed due to training with my very much trusted companions in camp. Had news yesterday about our posting results; confirmed mountain rusher for the rest of my NS liability.  Staying on with the queens of the battlefield before hopefully goin on to wearing my admin tee on my head. But news of my posting precedes what was deemed as my most devastating news in army so far: Alpha wing will be closed down. It just adds to the depressing mood on that day. First all of  us are thrown all over the shop to the various support arms, next the wing closes down. It’s like wow! Everything just drops down a couple of notches on the happiness index. Such sadness, thankfully changes are being made and that there’s a possibility that Alpha wing might still remain open but the chances that all of us are lookin at isn’t really optimistic.  Well I’m not going to harp on such a dampening news for today. Christmass will be a lot better without all these sad news. Merry Christmas to all and I wish that your year will be filled with every possible sort of exciting feeling that you’ll ever get. Hope you’ll be more fortunate then you are this year and may all your wishes be granted beyond what you want. Cheers to all and may this time of year beyour greatest joy yet.  Cheers! =D

Awards Night

Social night was banging for many reasons, one was the awards, one was for the girl involved. Won’t say much this week except to enjoy your X’mas peeps, will update next week when I become a senior cadet. Cheers!

Ps: The Flavour of the month has been updated =)

Infantry Poultry

Past few weeks have been quite hectic, going outfield over and over again. Really getting used to infantry life very much,  the never ending rushing of knolls, checking out the insects around us, carving wood with our multitool equipments etc. Its actually quite fun, comparing this to sitting in tanks and looking at green beeping lights on the dashboard all day or other restricted activities that I’m not allowed to mention. The survival skills we learn in the army will probably come in handy once in a while once we ORD, but through learning all such skills we really get to see nature as it is. Let’s face it, we’ll never see so much sand flies in our offices or wild boars running around city hall neither would you have to build a basha at Bishan park too.  I think national service is really underrated and under-appreciated by the youths of our nation. It’s our rites to menhood and the doorway we step through to reach adulthood, and these memories are the ones that we’ll all share in common and have something to talk about over the years as we get more wrinkles and shed more blood, sweat and tears.

Cloudy Day

The sky is always blue,
But often the clouds of different color decorates the skies,
Sometimes white,
Other times gray.
Hence the color of the clouds depict our moments,
The sad times gray,
The happy times white.
But the person who is the sky will never change.
Don’t let the dark clouds affect you,
Let the white clouds smother you.

Cheers people!
32 More weeks of blood, sweat and tears.